Moment of heartbreak, I didn't passed the JLPT things last year so I try to pushed my self in my 28 to learn again. Somehow writing in english seems easier (but please no grammar), gladly I read thousand fanfiction story until I can write like this today.
Maybe this year would fill with learning new language, and I really hope in the end of 2026, I can speak arabic and japanese. I want to save my money more to traveling, and go somewhere not in my homeland for new experience. It's so sad that knowing myself isn't eligible for aboard life, the main reason I start my language class. How can other people look so easy to change their passport to other country, when I still watching some k-drama in my room from this island?
Right, maybe I'm too daydreaming, they said I'm not grateful daughter cause I always in different city, far from parents. But if I can make an excuse, I want to life better with them. In money, love is something you should trade. They're easier and unconditionally love is something that parents will give to you, meanwhile money isn't like that.
In my case, i do not trade love for money. But I trade them for experience. Yes, this sounds loveless or egoist, but I want to be someone better than them, I try my luck, my mom's dua, and my dad's eyes, for something i never see. Sound sad, but actually my toxic trait is make it myself seen for me.
I'll write something better next month. this is just brainrot. see you next time.
